I think I've been having a melt-down of sorts... I'm not sure if it's any ONE thing in particular, or just a combination of things going on... My kids have been making me nuts and I feel like I have been the wicked-witch mother from #ell this past week... I REALLY need to get back to the "box"... I'm getting that overwhelmed/stressed out feeling and I know the kids are feeding off of it... Today I found myself crying at my 9 year old because I am just SO tired of being TIRED all of the time and every time I turn around it seems he's having a tantrum about something he doesn't want to do or because he's mad at one of his siblings...
I think the biggest thing on my mind is my ultra sound scheduled for tomorrow morning... I'm excited to have another look and "see" my baby... hubby and my oldest son and the baby will be there to experience with me, and we will most likely find out the "flavor" : ) Afterwards I will meet with my doctor so that he can go over the results, and let me know if there is further reason to be "concerned" with the babies health.... I really HATE that I'm worried about this... It shouldn't matter...
But today, it started when my nine year old left the peanut butter out, after making a sandwich. And THEN the kitchen gate was left open... AGAIN... the gates went up about 2 months ago after the first time the baby got in the refrigerator smashing 17 out of an 18-pack of eggs... The second time the gate was left open, she was caught after smashing only 5... Last night when the gate was left open she smashed 11 out of a dozen before she was discovered... I mean, HOW MANY times do these children, age 12-6, need to be reminded to keep the gates closed??!! Today I lost it when she discovered the FULL OPENED jar of peanut butter and went to town on the cupboards and floor and, for good measure, herself... (I guess I should be happy she's learned to leave the cereal alone?... )I was SO tired... and now I had a crying baby -naked from head to toe, by the way, with PB in her eyes rubbing her face on my leg... After everyone had gotten lunch I had closed up the kitchen, WHY was it open?? Oh, there was the general responses of "I don't know" and "It wasn't me..." The result was my crying meltdown... sigh ... "Why?" and "How in the world?" am I going to handle another baby when the one's I have are SUCH a handful?... "Lord!! I am SO tired!!" and "WHAT??" will I do if I have a special needs baby?... How am I going to NOT lose my mind?... Bottom line here is, I'm scared...
So, today, when I opened up and got this video, I realized I really needed the laugh... Please pray for me... for my sanity, for my strength, for my family... and for the health of the new baby... All in God's hands, I know, and He will present me nothing that I cannot handle... Thanks everyone! Now, enjoy a good laugh : )
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That video was adorable!!! How can you help but not smile?? I loved it.
Hang in there. I know exactly how you feel and what you are going through. I only have two kids but sometimes it feels like I have ten.
My daughter knocked down a shelf in the fridge earlier this week with everything (including eggs) falling to the bottom with a large crash. She was trying to climb up and get something. I got so mad, she was crying and the only thing I could do was tell her to go to her room and I cleaned up. Luckily the shelf didn't break and the eggs didn't break either (thank you God).
Once I cleaned up and fixed everything I had her come in and I tried to let her know that climbing in the fridge was not a good thing. She's three, I'm not sure if she'll do it again or not, but she knew mommy was very upset. I felt bad after because she was so upset about it. But I think she learned her lesson.
Things like that happen on a daily basis and sometimes I just feels so overwhelmed and frustrated.
It's nice to know that all mom's pretty much experience the same thing.
I always wake up each morning and say a little prayer that my kids will be angels and everything will run smoothly. Then when they wake up I ask them to be good for the day and we will all be happy. I wish it worked every day, but kids will be kids.
Good luck on your ultrasound and have a great weekend!
I'll be praying for the results of that ultrasound, and for a quieter day tomorrow. Thanks for sharing, we had a humdinger here today!
Thank you girls for the kind words and support. It's nice to know I'm in good company! : ) The ultra sound has been put off again until next Thursday (I'll blog about it later) So, for now, we're pretty much trying to go on 'business as usual'. Thank you, Jesus, for another day to try and get it right! ; ) I'm headed to confessions in the morning!
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