Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
The house next door to us has been no exception. Over the past 8 or so years since the original owners passed away, there have been a number of renters rotating in and out. But there was one young family , about 4 years ago, that lived there for a couple of years. Very friendly and very good neighbors for the time they were here. My kids would call to him each and every time they would see him tinkering around out front. "Louis! Hey Louis! Hi Louis!" At the time, he and his young wife had a 4 or 5 year old daughter and a new born baby boy. He managed a local Chili's restaurant and she worked for a local grocery chain. The mom left me a big bag of clothes and shoes for my baby girl before they moved to another part of town almost 3 years ago.
That was pretty much the last I had heard of them, until the neighbor on the other side of me brought this to my attention this morning... Manager's last act at Chili's was to protect co-worker . It seems he made a good impression on just about anyone he came in contact with. God rest his soul... Apparently there was a third child born since they left... I used to tease the mom before they left that they had beautiful children and really did owe it to the world to have more... Such is the world we live in.... We know not the day or the hour that we will meet our maker... Please say a prayer for Louis' soul and for the young, beautiful family he has left behind... I can only imagine the grief...
Friday, July 25, 2008
When we finally got in for the actual ultra sound the tech was able to make some measurements of the baby's head, leg and arm bones and abdomen. She also told us the gender and said that everything looked as though it was within "normal range". When the doctor/specialist came in, the baby decided to turn his back to the camera and not cooperate... lol... no different than my other 4... He WAS able to get a look at the heart, that he framed up and clicked a button, and this red and blue appeared on the screen. It was the actual blood flow to and from the heart! THAT was really cool! But with the baby having his back to us, The doc really wasn't able to see the arms, legs, face and heart as well as he would have liked to. So, guess what?... I get to go back in three weeks to do it again!
So, while I didn't get the "fairly certain" from the doctor that I would have liked, I heard and saw enough to set my heart and mind at ease... I really think that it is just God's way of telling me to "let go and let God" I really need to just TRUST in Him and His plan... The ultra sound that I will have again in a few weeks will just be "gravy"... : )
I know that it can be easy to try and reassure someone in my situation to "be at peace" and "not to worry. Everything will be fine..." and I really appreciate the support and good intentions. I've done it myself for others... but now, having been through this myself it just shows me that "too much information" can be harmful, especially to the mind... This has been such an emotional roller coaster to me... I knew before I was pregnant that there was a risk of Downs or any other number of problems. But having a test come back "positive" really can have a toll... It's why I have declined the AFP screening for my last 3 pregnancies... I really did not realize when my doctor asked me to have the "First trimester u/s-screening" that it would involve all this, or I most probably would have declined it, as well, just to save myself the grief and worry... I know that they (medical science) do it all in the name of 'health' and 'staying informed', but today's society in general is just too programmed to "disposable life" and wanting to know everything so as to determine which life is viable and which is not... and being the pro-life person that I am, it's a really an ugly place to be immersed...
One of the papers that I had to sign yesterday was one asking if I was interested in having the AFP screening or the testing for Cystic Fibrosis... I wanted to write in BIG BOLD letters across the paper, "NO MORE TESTING!! Thank you!!" but, instead i just marked "declined" and signed my name... Thank you, to everyone that has prayed and offered words of wisdom and support. They really do mean the world to me and help immensely. God is good...
Now, without further ado, I'd like to introduce you to Samuel Elijah...
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Antonia (My grandmother's name) ???
I like all of these, for different reasons, but I'm not sure if any of them "scream out" at me, yet... It seems, with our other 4, we just "knew", ya know?... So, I'm open to any and all suggestions!
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
I think I've been having a melt-down of sorts... I'm not sure if it's any ONE thing in particular, or just a combination of things going on... My kids have been making me nuts and I feel like I have been the wicked-witch mother from #ell this past week... I REALLY need to get back to the "box"... I'm getting that overwhelmed/stressed out feeling and I know the kids are feeding off of it... Today I found myself crying at my 9 year old because I am just SO tired of being TIRED all of the time and every time I turn around it seems he's having a tantrum about something he doesn't want to do or because he's mad at one of his siblings...
I think the biggest thing on my mind is my ultra sound scheduled for tomorrow morning... I'm excited to have another look and "see" my baby... hubby and my oldest son and the baby will be there to experience with me, and we will most likely find out the "flavor" : ) Afterwards I will meet with my doctor so that he can go over the results, and let me know if there is further reason to be "concerned" with the babies health.... I really HATE that I'm worried about this... It shouldn't matter...
But today, it started when my nine year old left the peanut butter out, after making a sandwich. And THEN the kitchen gate was left open... AGAIN... the gates went up about 2 months ago after the first time the baby got in the refrigerator smashing 17 out of an 18-pack of eggs... The second time the gate was left open, she was caught after smashing only 5... Last night when the gate was left open she smashed 11 out of a dozen before she was discovered... I mean, HOW MANY times do these children, age 12-6, need to be reminded to keep the gates closed??!! Today I lost it when she discovered the FULL OPENED jar of peanut butter and went to town on the cupboards and floor and, for good measure, herself... (I guess I should be happy she's learned to leave the cereal alone?... )I was SO tired... and now I had a crying baby -naked from head to toe, by the way, with PB in her eyes rubbing her face on my leg... After everyone had gotten lunch I had closed up the kitchen, WHY was it open?? Oh, there was the general responses of "I don't know" and "It wasn't me..." The result was my crying meltdown... sigh ... "Why?" and "How in the world?" am I going to handle another baby when the one's I have are SUCH a handful?... "Lord!! I am SO tired!!" and "WHAT??" will I do if I have a special needs baby?... How am I going to NOT lose my mind?... Bottom line here is, I'm scared...
So, today, when I opened up and got this video, I realized I really needed the laugh... Please pray for me... for my sanity, for my strength, for my family... and for the health of the new baby... All in God's hands, I know, and He will present me nothing that I cannot handle... Thanks everyone! Now, enjoy a good laugh : )
Thursday, July 10, 2008
The general public wants to just eat all this "great" information up, all in the name of "health", but do they take time to think about what the long term affects on their children will be? We lecture and warn them from the time they are old enough to understand, about the dangers of taking drugs, and the long term affects on their bodies. What about these so called "legal" drugs and medications? Just because something is labeled as "legal" doesn't make it safe. All medications give a whole list of "side affects". And if you listen or read closely, many of them include, in at least some cases, "death". How many young girls have to die or become paralyzed before they stop pushing Gardisil as the newest and latest "miracle" medicine to "protect" them from "some strains" of cervical cancer? What ARE the long term affects of giving our young people cholesterol meds starting at a very young age? I don't know the answer for that... But I am not going to rush out and have my kids cholesterol tested tomorrow, either...
Like I said, I'm not completely against vaccinating children. Though I do like to stay informed on the types of vaccines out there and have a choice as to what I will have them get. I do steer clear of the chicken pox vaccine, when I learned that it derived from human embryos. But I am not real concerned about my kids getting chicken pox, either. It used to be, pretty much, part of childhood... Although I did not get them until I was 22 and working in a pre-school... and only my oldest son has gotten them, one week before he was scheduled to receive the vaccine, and before I knew about it's origins... Anyway, if I have any "neighbors" out there, that have kids with chicken pox, I'd be more than happy to have them over to my house to "share" : ) It would be nice to have them all get it done and over with!
#3 is our older daughter, who is 6. #4 has decided that she not only doesn't want #3 in the same room with us, the parents, when she's around, but she has taken to pulling her hair, hitting and screaming and pushing her away. Last night we decided that this just wasn't going to work anymore and so we told her "no" when she started her hitting and screaming. You would have thought that we had cut her right leg off the way she screamed... and screamed... and screamed and cried and threw herself on the floor kicking and screaming some more. She started her usual banging her fore-head on the floor, and when I told her to stop that, she got up and went to the wall, where she proceeded to bang her head again. After about 10 minutes of this, hubby tried to pick her up off the floor and calm her down, when she threw her head back and almost out of his arms, screaming and kicking some more. He put her in her crib where she screamed and sobbed another 10 or 15 minutes. The kids, in the mean time are going nuts, because they just don't want to hear her screaming anymore (like we do?...) and are willing to do ANYTHING to make her stop...
After she finally calmed down, tantrum #2 came when she discovered #3 now was reading a book that she had decided was "hers". Once again she started with the hitting and screaming at her sissy trying to grab away the book. Once again we told her "no" and off she went, in to full melt down... parenting isn't for sissies... After another 15 minutes or so, and encouraging everyone to do their best just to ignore her screaming and let her calm down she decided that she was done... She let me clean her face with some cool water, she got some reassuring hugs from daddy and sissy decided that she was done with the book and let her baby sister have it. These aren't easy lessons, for sure... but I figure that with another baby arriving soon, she's going to have to learn sometime. Now if we can just get her to talk! : ) Communication would be SO MUCH EASIER!!
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
"PHOENIX, Arizona, JULY 8, 2008 (Zenit.org).- For many who have left the Catholic Church, there
is often a great desire to come home. However, fear and guilt often lead many to
put off the gnawing decision to return to the Church. Not knowing where to turn,
many who were once faithful feel lost and ashamed.Tom Peterson, founder of
Catholicscomehome.org, has found television and the Internet to be just the
place to reach out to those wishing to come back to the Church.Earlier this year
Peterson tested his methods and ideas using an advertising campaign geared
toward the 3.5 million who live in the Diocese of Phoenix.More than 6,000 people
inquired and came back to the Church via the Catholicscomehome.org Web site, and
many more came back to Catholicism by reporting directly to a parish near their
home. One priest reported that 16 people came to him for confession after they
saw the television ad.“One of the biggest surprises for us was the amount of
inquiries from those who are not Catholic," said Peterson. "About one quarter of
those expressing an interest in the Catholic Church are from those who have seen
our commercials or visited our Web site and want to better understand the
Catholic Church, or have actually made the decision to become
When sorting out what caused many to leave the Church, Peterson
said “about 90% of those who left the Church can’t give a good reason."He also
explained that many can't express why they want to come back. Many simply say
they felt something was missing."They often want to come home but don’t know
how. They feel uncomfortable about coming back and don’t know what to do -- when
to sit and when to stand, and what to pray. We try to ease those fears and
remind them of God’s desire to see them come home,” the director said.Once they
come back to Church, he added, they feel renewed. “They experience the Eucharist
again and the power of confession. They feel their hunger for the truth has been
met and a feeling of joy overcomes them."When asked why he thought his brief
television commercials had such an impact, Peterson said: “Our commercials are a
basic reminder of who we are, the Church Jesus founded, the Church that Jesus
entrusted to Peter and every pope who followed him."We are the Church that gave
the world the Bible. When we quickly explain these facts and use the Bible to do
it, people really respond. They admit that either they never really knew this or
To read more, including testimonies, please see the article at the above link.
If you haven't seen the commercial yet, I have had it posted at the bottom of my blog for a while, now. I think it's a great and non-threatening way to encourage people to take another look at what the Catholic Church REALLY is about. I look forward to seeing more commercials produced!
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Monday, July 7, 2008
Is it any wonder that society is confused?
Friday, July 4, 2008
Happy Independence Day! A day to be grateful to all of the brave young men and women who have given their lives to the freedoms that so many Americans can take for granted... Though there are those who will continue to mock our Founding Fathers, we were formed One Nation under God, and I have news for those who would like to think otherwise... God is STILL in control, and will continue to stay and walk beside those who call on His Name. Thank you to those who have fought and protected me, my nation and our nations rights. Thank you, especially, to those who gave their lives.
And a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my first "great"-niece (or is it "grand"?...) born yesterday afternoon, 3 weeks early! Despite a rough entrance to the world, she arrived safe and healthy and both mom, dad AND baby are doing great! Thank you, Jesus! Can't wait to meet her, but probably won't be until next month.
Other than that, we will be spending a semi-quiet evening at home. I am cooking some tri-tip (yummy) with some salad and veggies, and a peach cobbler for dessert! So, I hope you all are able to also spend some time with friends and family enjoying good food and company. Be sure to take some time, also, to remember those who gave their time and lives to make your life style and freedoms possible, and remember those who are still in our military, away from home and families this day.